Me

I am back to my college this morning :) It was a nice time with family.... and now when I see, I find only 50 days .. last 50 days at my college.... I m crying :( ....

Now It is the time to look back at these 4 years and see what good and bad I did. where I fell and where I rose. What I learnt and what I need to. And most importantly what I missed in these 4 years that I should have acquired.

I remember the day I stepped into the daiict as the part of daiict family after getting the admit, at the time of 1st semester. There was a dream that I will be among the top 10 out of these 250 of my batch, but if I leave my 1st and 5th(after a sharp decrement in the CPI), in all rest of the semester I was never ever concentrated on the studies. I never attended the lectures seriously, did only the few labs seriously, and all I was doing was nothing but anything related to my passion. And to my bad luck, my passion also kept on changing. In this way, the second year at this college was the most unproductive. I spent my time here and there doing nothing, literally nothing. This was also the same time when I started flipping networking books. My start of the most interesting but most useless thing, i.e, hacking . I remember the day, somewhere in the mid of september or so, when I approached a renowned professor at my college, saying that I want to learn hacking and the reply was "see, I dont remember the books at the top of my head." I was taken aback but soon realised that this stuff I need to start on my own. Once I get started, I can slowly increase my presence among many other hackers. But I regard as the most unproductive thing happened to my career, at the same time most productive thing also. Productive because it is something that everyone wants to know, and something that taught me a lot of things. It is a dream to do it, doing what others cant do. Unproductive because I crossed my limit of spending time for this stuff. Doing the night outs and learning stuff putting other important things on the other side of the table. My CPI decreased, myextra curriculars stopped. And now, its of no use in my career. I can't even write it in my resume.

The 6th semester was the most productive in terms of learning. It was the semester when I joined image sensor network project. A really good one. A dream project. It was the only semester when I learned advanced theoritical computer security. And it was only this semester when I found a novel approach to attack N-queens problem. Apart from the coursework and projectwork, I gave some more time for my english language, which was very much poor, especially my verbal communication. If I remember, I could not speak a single sentence without any error. This way, the english was something very essential to my career and this semester played an important role for me in this regard.

After this, my research internship was another most unproductive time. I didnot work on the projects, tried to mug barron, which I never wanted to do. And finally I could not mug it. I would mug some words today and wil forget the next day. I did the hacking stuff again which I had left by the end of 5th semester. Involved myself in the things, which I am not supposed to do.

7th and the 8th semester till now, have been very productive. My projects have progressed well. During Delhi demo, my camera saved the prestige(I can proudfully say, coz only this thing worked). We have another date for the Delhi. I explored myself, my weekness, my +points. A lot I got to know about me, whats good for my future, what career option and goals, I should choose. and what I should be doing to achieve that.

If I see now, only those semesters have been productive, when I had something interesting and creative to do. When I was challenged and I had to prove myself. For example: in 6th sem, the creative work was on N-queens problem, and challenge was to get a command on english in few months. And in 7th and 8th, the creative thing was the Image sensor Project, and challenge was to meet the Delhi deadlines. So, in short a better career option for me will be, a place where I can get something interesting and creative to do, something challenging to do. For example: A research project may be challenging, but if it is related to theoritical research, then it may not be a good choice for me. Since I find myself self-driven for creative work, a practical and implementable research project will be a better choice over the theoritical one.

And more importantly I must leave all those useless things that have been wasting my time till now.

I wish for, a more concentrated me , a more directed me.

-Jack