Where is ME?

More than painful, it is to realize that you have lost your intrinsic essentials, that you are no more what you were, and that you are altogether someone different and someone that you never wished to be.

The change is inevitable but the through this alteration becoming someone that you hated in your life, that you abused is something shocking and the realization of it is nothing but a shock.

I can't believe what I am today. I lost myself. I lost my own personality. That H***** is lost somewhere, with the rise of Jack. But I hate this Jack, I want to be the H*****, I want to be myself, someone return me myself, myself is lost, myself is lost. Seems like I have died and got reincarnated in the same body. Where is that me ???? where is myself..... I want to be H****T, NOT THIS JACK. Oh God! I am crying :(

I loved that H****T. I hate this Jack. I want to be the H****T again.