I am broken

i am not writing this, this is my heart penning down. and i simply, can not disown this state of myself tonight.

I RUINED MYSELF.
I AM A SPOILED BOY.
I WANT TO CHANGE.
BUT I AM UNABLE TO.
SOMEBODY SAVE ME. I NEED HELP.
I AM EMOTIONALLY BROKEN.
I AM TORN.

I WANT TO TELL EVERYTHING THAT IS THERE DEEP DOWN INSIDE MY HEART, THAT ONLY I AND THE GOD KNOWS. I WANT TO LET IT OUT. I NEED AN OUTLET. I CAN NOT FIND ONE. I NEED HELP. I NEED HELP TO GET OUT OF THIS CRAP. I AM UNABLE TO SLEEP. I AM UNABLE TO WORK. SOMETHING IS EATING ME FROM INSIDE. I CANT GO ON WITH THIS. I FEEL LIKE HELL. I WANT TO CHANGE. I WANT TO LIVE A NORMAL LIFE. I WANT TO CHANGE.

http://those4days.blogspot.com/2008/03/more-than-painful-it-is-to-realize-that.html